under the infulence of Butterfly (by Tapping The Vein)

look at me now
I'm participating in a homicide
look at me now
I'm killing them all in my head
they don't know it yet
but they are corpses in my head
another new face meaningless
I'm participating in a homicide

Puking is metal xD and helping fellow mates is metal too \m/

So Long, Scarecrow

it's evening and I am making the second entry.. yeah I didn't forget ^^
I am better now thanks for asking and... I found my ring ^^ [it was in my bed]
and yes I am totally, utterly and completely over him the only problem is.. that I am not that much over someone else but maybe I shouldn't get over.. maybe that's how it should be between.. you know.. well k k.. at first place I shouldn't really be into but I am and there's not that much I can do about it so... yeah...
lately I've been having these dreams more and more often.. when I am with someone.. but don't get me wrong there's nothing of pornographic nature there I simply am not that kinda person... actually I might be but.. there's nothing like that in there so don't worry... maybe my alone time is coming to an end.. maybe... soon... someone... somehow... will find me.. you know that I really am not that good in searching... I am an observer.. I sit look around and wait... or maybe thous dreams are meant to make it easier for me to get along whit this.. state of mine... here I dear to have a little hope... maybe my alone time is finally coming to an end... maybe...


p.s. damn it.. I just noticed that I do really write whit not with but it's just a type-o I have no idea why.. when I write with hand it always comes out correct but with keyboard.... it's weird xD

how is raven like a writing desk?

yes I know I know 4th day and I already have missed two posts but what can I do if memory is not a good friend of mine? so... because I missed yesterdays post I'll be giving two entries today... one now and one in the evening lets hope I won't forget about the second one...

a poem to my belly

oh my dearest belly
thou art so weak
thou even can't hold
a goblet of beer

oh my dearest belly
thou art so weak
next time we meet
I'll give you some tea

did you know that I had nothing so vile?

- ohh fuck.. I almost forgot
- what?
- you know.. the thing
- what thing?
- that thing I've been secretly planning to do and hoping that I won't forget
- watch all seasons of dino barny?
- what?... no.... I am talking about blogtober
- blo... what?
- blogtober.. you know.. blog + october = weird random everyday blog month
- ohh.. right.. so you are starting now? at the second one.. way to go *khe khe*
- I tagged yesterdays post as blogtober so it counts.. I started at time
- no you didn't
- ohh shut up

so yeah all my beloved followers.. lovers and haters and of curse you.. I mean me... I've decided to put a little task above me.. a task named blogtober.. where for a full month I will blog every day... or at least try to and hope that I won't forget
today I...
got up
cleaned the room
watched some movies
plaid guitar
watched some movies again
plaid Morrowind (started bloodmoon missions)
washed my hair
and somewhere in the middle lost my ring.. and it sucks.. a lot.. though.. I had this feeling for some time now that I am about to lose it so when now it happened I didn't felt that surprised, socked and sad

we live in a void... enjoy the journey

photogenetic recap

and often we see the things they tell us as the things that really are
cold icy morning
snow caps on trees
two eyed monster with white burning eyes
passes
lonely wind greets me with a smile
she kissed me on the cheek as I left
walking for hours

Ulver - Porn Piece Or The Scars Of Cold Kisses

don't you love it when you are looking for a great song and you find that someone has made video for it using a great movie and the two together makes up a total brilliance

I remember walking, one side of town to the other
Alone one night in January... or February
It's like in an old movie from some other land
It lasted for hours

Only streelights
And the grating of gravel in pedestrian subways

I remember some trees which stood black and naked
Weatherbeaten hollows of snow
With sparse lumps of ice,
Been scraped off by the wind alone
And on the stairs before I left
One of the girls had surprisingly given me a kiss
Stung in the cold long after