is it for you or is it for them?

k.. so I'm watching Grey's Anatomy S07E20 and I'm at 27:22 mark and ahh I'm just so pissed... how can you fucking say it's not real? how? it doesn't have to have all thous traditional stuffs just because you know.. it's the regular way to do it.. cause everyone else is doing it and if you don't have them it doesn't count and is fake... BULLSHIT! you could do it in a meadow in front of a fucking forest. just the two of you. no one else. and it still would fucking count. it's not about the show you put up! it's about the commitment that you make!

world has became and emptyer place once again

well this just suck.... a lot..... can't even think straight too shocked I am....... damn.... and I was just getting into his work.......... fuck
and all I can say is.............. rest now












-sigh-

somewhere not here

last night I had one of most amazing experiences in my life the state I went trough were undescribable but I think the word "freaky" is the one who stands closer to the thing than any other one.... a few days ago I got this movie pack called "10 sickest movies" as I am that kinda person who likes gory things I thought that I'll enjoy such movies so last night I put one up "Cutting Moments" it was called.. it started out very slow and in nothing's happening way but there were this moment in the movie. "a woman standing in front of the mirror and rubbing her lips with a metal sponge till they got all blody" blood... nice nice "then she takes a scissors and starts to cut of her upper lip" I sit and watch, enjoy myself quite well and then suddenly I don't know what happaned but I suppose I almost fainted for as you see all got blury and I could see only big and blury objects also I couldn't hear nothing but loud and distorted hiss in my ears it felt like someone would have hitted my head with a huge wooden bat I once hit my leg in a place where nerves can be demaged very hard and the feeling were quite the same only this time it was much more powerfull.. for a moment I thought that I am about to die.. I lost the connection with reality because of the monumental dizzynes of the moment.. somehow I managed to turn of my computer tough now I have no idea how I did that.. as I was strongly trying to not lose my consciousness cause if I would have lost it the fall from the chair I was sitting in most probably would end with strong head damage and probably me bleeding on the ground and it all might even end with me being dead so.. just don't lose your consciousness just don't lose it... when my head started to clear out a bit as I was sitting on my bead with my eyes floathing somewhere in the dark room I remembered that I had some chocolate bars on my deskt so I got them and as I was eating the second one my head atlast stoped to spin my ears stoped to scream and my eyes could tell a TV from a book-shelf... that was something scary very disturbing and at the same time hugely interesting and exciting.. something you won't forget that fast.. I have to admit for me it felt even better than being drunk xD

please carbonate that for me

I just in the news heard that americans are going to make and sell carbonated milk... can you imagine that? have they really sank that deep that they can not drink something that is not carbonated... have can you even imagine to take and add bubbles to milk? when I imagine the taste of that.... lets just say I get sick... really sick...... what will be next? carbonated shits so it's easyer to poop for thous brainless mutants?