as the time flashes

first entry this year and I already forgot what I wanted to say nothing special I suppose.. as one period is replaced by another a will to look back comes stronger to recall what has happened in the last year. for me 2009 was the year of letting go I think past has done it's work and has given me an enormous lesson which I shall use to become wiser. for the first time I truly feel that it all has ended.. I had anything that I could have been willing to have but still I was lost someplace else not ready to face the reality yet not willing to admit that my state had changed but it really seems that this all confusion will stay in the past for once...

With mercenary smile
I rise up from the shade
As the king of all souls

My Dying Bride - The Lies I Sire

as you might know music means a lot to me and whenever I can I describe my state with a song.. I was going to just paste some lyrics in here but I ended up marking all song so I'll just walk the shortest way