I'm a butterfly! I'm a butterfly! I'm a fucking stone.

it's 10 to 12 and I feel like a chipmunk. you know that state in which you enter somewhere around the edge of exhaustion. that "haha this all is so funny I don't know what I'm doing and I can feel the despair creeping in but at the moment I'm a chipmunk"
I've never really believed in you but if you really are up there big guy. please give me the strength and will to get trough this without any major injuries.