why are you doing this to me? why are you doing this to yourself? do you have any idea what are you doing to me? DO YOU?

nanananana b....bullet in my ficking head

it's past 8pm and have I done anything? anything at all? no... no.. why?.. well I don't know.. maybe cause it feels as if my whole world is falling into pieces.
hello cold floor my old friend.

Withdrawn

I should be working but I have no will. It's raining outside and all is grey and all is full of wind. Just want to sit here and listen to doom. I should be working. I have things to do. But I just want to lay down on the floor and look out the window. The branches slowly dancing in wind. Like lovers, filled with melancholy. I feel a bit.. out of time and space. I don't know where I am now. It's all grey in here. The ground, the sky. But the sky is slowly moving and I can feel that there's something bright behind it's greyness. Am I sad? No. I think not. Just melancholic.

what does the rainbow taste like?

yesterday
Novembers Doom - Broken



today
Florence + The Machine - I'm Not Calling You A Liar

just to let you know

not good enough, too good, not good enough, too good, not good enough, too good, not good enough, too good, not good enough, too good, not good enough, too good, not good enough, too good...
destruction destruction watch it all burn down in your minds eye
but I don't care.. I still want your last name

I'm a butterfly! I'm a butterfly! I'm a fucking stone.

it's 10 to 12 and I feel like a chipmunk. you know that state in which you enter somewhere around the edge of exhaustion. that "haha this all is so funny I don't know what I'm doing and I can feel the despair creeping in but at the moment I'm a chipmunk"
I've never really believed in you but if you really are up there big guy. please give me the strength and will to get trough this without any major injuries.

Kanye West - Monster [feat. Jay-Z, Rick Ross, Nicki Minaj & Bon Iver]