like in an ant town

today I went to this big mass event that took place in our dear capital.. mostly it's old town.. I saw some interesting things but came home with a one big lesson of the day - I hate crowds... I have knew this fact about myself for some time already but never before I have felt so sick of the mass as I did today.. no matter where I went there were always tons of people there and all that I can say is.. I felt really really sick and more than just uneasy... lets say - disturbed.... it's also interesting how lonely crowd makes you feel like there is someone everywhere you gaze but though you are in the middle of it all you feel more alone then if you would be just by yourself there... maybe the fact that you know none of thous persons strongers the feeling of loneliness.. there are so many of them around but you know none of them and none knows you actually that could be it.. the core of loneliness... no one knows you.......
lucky for me I had a friend of mine with me there so it wasn't that bad but still I felt really really sick and uneasy....... I truly dislike masses of any kind