Dead is the New Alive

why I did what I did?
1)I wanted to see how it would be like without
2)I had to pay more attention to the board
3)as I already said I was afraid to get sick and maybe I just felt without realizing that the 500 days are nearly over and you know what happens at the end of them [and it really did happened I started to hate as much as I used to love]
4)I wanted to show you how it would be without
5)the distance will stand between one day and we have to face it the thing is how we'll get over it
6)I wanted to see your reaction
7)not only distance but also people will stand between and I had to face it cause if it would have happened before I don't know if I could have accepted it and in what state it would lead me in

I thought I had become stronger but it seems that one night is enough to crack me again

I missed you and at the moment I do too

how can thou ask from me to reveal myself up thee while thouself remains locked?

"Doubt thou, the Stars are fire,
Doubt that the Sun doth move,
Doubt Truth to be a liar,
But never doubt, I love."