Chocky

I feel ever so tired.. I wonder why... maybe because I went to sleep at 5am and got up at 9:30am cause my phone rung [it was my granma].... I've been home alone for two nights already and for some reason I have quite monumental feeling that this will be the 3rd night... still got some wine in closet... just joined group on last.fm "too much post-rock gets me depressed but I love it" fits me quite perfectly.... and yes I am listening to post-rock now.... god I am tired... trying to read some stuff for school... in chemestry... something from the materials for next year but I can hardly see the letters they are all blurred out... my fingertips are hurting... why they are hurting.. I though I am over.. guess not.... I think my dog is depressed... like a dog like a master... post-rock is good post-rock is nice... will you wake me up if I fall asleep? no... cause you'll be sleeping too....... why am I even writing this? why do I ever write? *sigh* just tug me in and leave me be... switched from Dr. Who to Desperate Housewives [to both I am at season 5 now].... after a month absence from home.. when I finally come home... everybody leaves the next day... and again I am here.. on my own... why don't I just go to sleep? it's always like this.. I get tired and I start to write and even if I want to say something clear and simple it will always come out blurred and complex... my mind tends to complex things where there is no need for it... I should work on it... and I think I just hear a thunder... cool.. xD the storm is coming... it could just blow me away.. I think I wouldn't mind.. would you mind? *yawn* you see... complex complex complex just stop it for once jeez...