and as I wandered

one day in the last week [can't surely recall which exact day it was] a little venture came across me.
I went to the dentist after school at that day so I was home quite late somewhere around 6pm it could have been.. well to exact I wasn't home then yet for as you see when I reached my flats door and reached in the bag for keys to get in my hand was not able to find anything that could be my keys in the bag.. may eyes as well failed at this task and only then I realized... I had left my keys at school lockers, for your information somewhere around 30km lies between my home and my school. there where no chance of me getting them back that day so I called my dear mother in a hope that she'll be home soon and I won't be forced to sit in front of locked doors for too long. But for my great misfortune she in that day had her lessons of some kinda [something to do with knitting or something like that] and just as I call her she was entering the class... two hours the lesson lasted and one more hour was needed for her to get home so for three whole hours I was left without a chance to get home... I live in a small city and we don't have almost anything in here where I could spent the time. at that time all libraries were closed already and I know none in this place so the only thing I could do was wander around and that I did... we have a dam here and it's a dear place to me to go and just sit there.. looking in the water and to the other shore... though the dam is quite big rare when people come to it unless it's a hot summer day and they're taking a swim in the river.. but that day was not hot Alas! it was cold and windy then but for some reason that is just the weather I prefer the most... so for three hours I just walked on it... from one side to another I don't know how many km I had walked but one I know.. never did I stop.... as I mentioned before it was quite cold and windy but never minding the fact that I had only my light jacket on and a Tshirt beneath I wasn't freezing at all... all but my fingers which at the end were stiff and motionless.. all my body was ssurounded by a light chill.... so in the wet wind I wandered for three hours... for some reason I felt almost like the whole world had betrayed me... and there I was alone on the dam in the dim weather.. all alone... only my dearest friend my trustful companion were with my.... music... it has always been with me... all through my hard times when I had none else I could turn to and now here again it was with me while I wandered there alone... past, present and future dizzled through my head for three hours... where am I? where am I going to? whom I am going with? who am I? who should I be? the questions over and over repeated themselfs for three hours... and I got the answers to them all.. from the wind, the rain, the coldness and most of all from the music... as I have always gotten and always will get.... I had my player on shuffle and through all thous hours only one time I passed a song all of the rest where perfect for the moment.... the wind, the rain and the coldness... the still dimness... that is my place.. that is my motion