the sun was bright oh it blinded my mind

and now of curse I think that I am not good enough for you cause I can't fulfill all your needs, desires and urges.. that I am just this small and weak child pretending to be bigger than she is pretending to be something more than she is pretending to be someone worthy of your glance someone worthy of your touch ohh it drives me mad and this is so odd that I have observed.. next to you I feel quite casual, pleasant and all.. comfortable but nothing drastically lustful.. warm and safe but nothing burning.. but... but... as soon as your skin presses against mine or even worse.. if our lips meet at some point.. this wave of heat comes flushing over me.. and I'm burning and I need more.. more of you oh so much more and I can't think straight at all and I can feel how the madness overtakes me.. how my blood boils, my mind rushes, my nerves aglow and the world before me pulsing in the rhythm oh my racing heart... I'm like a pebble on a hilltop. sitting there all still and clear but a small blow of wind comes and it rocks and it starts to roll even faster and faster with no turning back