I think we should get up. I think that's a very bad idea.

I'm a morning person. I love mornings. the pale light. all awakens. the feeling of a new found day just waiting to get explored and lived. still.. there is one kind of mornings which stand way above all of the rest. the ones in which I'm waking up beside you knowing that I get to spend the rest of the day with you. so I don't have to worry about getting up and doing something. I can just be there. with you. just be. I think there's nothing more wonderful than that. I love your sleepy eyes *hey look there's some bubbles floating outside my window* and the way you smile when I look at you. there can't be anything more wonderful than that I think.

Magnetic Man - Fire

I can't really think of any fitting title

k..k.. you know that I'm not blaming you and I've forgiven you and all that but.. can we for a moment pretend that I still hold the grudge?... cause.. well.... then you could.. you know.. make up to my by.. making me these
I will love you forever if you do :3
and I will never ever mention it.. it will be totally wiped out of my memory.. utterly forgotten like never even happened ^^

can I ask you something? sure. why not?

it's funny how people need to really courage up to ask me something and then they are all like worried and uncomfortable but when they ask me that thing.. I'm like all cool. so they always end up worthlessly worrying.

I hope noones stalking me

omg I dance so fucking awesome when I have my headphones and sneakers on and no ones watching xD

"I Need Air"

Sunday morning. got up at 5am. got a lot of that shit done. in 2 hours way more than in whole day before. now it's 7.20am and I'm having rbid [Random Burst Into Dance] to Magnetic Man filled with flashbacks of some days before. yes.. that is that album we had in background then ^,..,^

we like it cause we can relate to it

"Welch says she is prone to “falling into severe holes” that leave her crying on the floor."

oh... my.....

I wish I could know what you're thinking. what you're thinking when you know you're hurting me. I really wish I could know.

melancholic waltz

don't you want me to stay? don't you want me to think of you as worthy? as someone worth staying with, worth fighting for, worth suffering for? don't you want me to stay? cause I want to. I really want to stay. I want to see you as worthy and I believe that you are. don't you want me to believe in you? cause I do.
I just want to feel valuable. I want to feel needed and appreciated. and I do. most of the time but now and then. and you say you don't know what to do and I think do you even want to do anything? you should, shouldn't you? you say you don't know how. any stupid romantic shit will do. anything at all. the smallest and most simple things. anything from the heart. I don't need anything big. your heart are way more valuable than any material shit. I just... I just... I just need a hug and warm word.. anyone.. please

A Forest of Stars - God

pigeon suicide behind my window [oh please don't be so grim]

I'm somewhere here. won't you come to me? I'm somewhere here. oh please come to me. I have cookies and tea and punk rock music. you'll like it I promise. oh please don't be ashamed my doors are always open. even if they look grey and abandoned. just knock once, twice.. two sugars am I right?

pretty little dice on board

bruises bruises kiss and restless
play the game of innocent blame
raw meat and nothing more
you want my raw meat and nothing more?

bruises bruises kiss and restless
play the game of innocent blame

laughter teeth and tongue between
eyes and touch and burning lust
anger hate and innocent blame

can I take it?
can't I take it?

love rage happiness pain
higher higher higher die
rise above it all and none
alone alone alone we stand
together all alone we stand

so the story can be told
the story of blame and innocent game

and fortune will come
for one and both
for all and none

written word of innocent game
filled pages of innocent fame

bruises bruises kiss and restless
play the game of innocent blame

the story must go on
the story will go on

but it's all right it's all fine... I can wait I can wait [and I will wait... forever if it's needed [but I hope it won't take that long].. I'm not going anywhere] and no.. I am not letting go.. there's no way you'll rip it out my clanged fists

why the FUCK it's so hard to let yourself be happy?

why are you doing this to me? why are you doing this to yourself? do you have any idea what are you doing to me? DO YOU?

nanananana b....bullet in my ficking head

it's past 8pm and have I done anything? anything at all? no... no.. why?.. well I don't know.. maybe cause it feels as if my whole world is falling into pieces.
hello cold floor my old friend.

Withdrawn

I should be working but I have no will. It's raining outside and all is grey and all is full of wind. Just want to sit here and listen to doom. I should be working. I have things to do. But I just want to lay down on the floor and look out the window. The branches slowly dancing in wind. Like lovers, filled with melancholy. I feel a bit.. out of time and space. I don't know where I am now. It's all grey in here. The ground, the sky. But the sky is slowly moving and I can feel that there's something bright behind it's greyness. Am I sad? No. I think not. Just melancholic.

what does the rainbow taste like?

yesterday
Novembers Doom - Broken



today
Florence + The Machine - I'm Not Calling You A Liar

just to let you know

not good enough, too good, not good enough, too good, not good enough, too good, not good enough, too good, not good enough, too good, not good enough, too good, not good enough, too good...
destruction destruction watch it all burn down in your minds eye
but I don't care.. I still want your last name

I'm a butterfly! I'm a butterfly! I'm a fucking stone.

it's 10 to 12 and I feel like a chipmunk. you know that state in which you enter somewhere around the edge of exhaustion. that "haha this all is so funny I don't know what I'm doing and I can feel the despair creeping in but at the moment I'm a chipmunk"
I've never really believed in you but if you really are up there big guy. please give me the strength and will to get trough this without any major injuries.

Kanye West - Monster [feat. Jay-Z, Rick Ross, Nicki Minaj & Bon Iver]