is it something special?

still and quiet is this time.. no toughs of any sort has passed trough my mind lately. maybe it's because of the time.. you know the christmas.. I've lost my sense of any holiday spirit a long time ago and now during things like birthdays or the christmas as in this case I don't feel different than in any other day.. to be honest I feel even more low as I see everyone being so light and joyful but here I sit.. just nothing... as always... but that's my way and the path I've chosen to walk. it's the last day of the year for already 23min suppose I should think something about how the next year will be and sucha.. hope to change be better or any of thous shits. but no... it's nothing for most kind of socienty it should be something special but for me.. it's just nothing really but you know.. I am not much into special things.. or society.. or anything really