thous dreams in which I'm...

I dream were rarely and when I do the dream mostly makes no sense at all and leaves me confused after the awakening... but this time it was something new.. well not totally new but the way of things happening was new.. we were 4 or 5 there in an abandoned flat that seemed a lot like the one I live in only there were no sign of someone living in there but the kitchen which for some reason not like all the other rooms were left with furniture, wallpapers and other things you can find in any other flat.. but what we were doing there? well as it seemed a group of suiciders were collected in there... we just hanged ourselfs one after the other.. I did it one of the firsts and succeeded at me first try and the death came were fast in a moment I was gone.. the feeling of lightening came upon my body and I knew I've done it... but then I was back in the kitchen.. all alive again and none seemed surprised about it so after a small talk I tried to hang myself again.. but this time I just couldn't do it. I tried 2 or 3 times but all of them failed... so weird it seems that at my first try the death came so easy and fast but when for some reason unknown to me I came back I just couldn't leave no matter how hard I thought about the way I should leave.... dreams are one weird thing...