I say this because?

I haven't made an entrance for some time now but it is mostly a due to the lack of time I've been into lately rather than laziness and yes I know it sounds like I'm making excuse but that's just how it is...
so why am I into such lack of time? well mostly it's because of the scientific research work I've been working active on for couple of months and though I presented it yesterday [oh wait it's tomorrow already.. well then the day before yesterday then] I still have to work on it to make it even better cause I was one of the 3 people from my section [13 works in total] that were sent off from school to the next part - the city... so I have to [or had to to be accurate as I've already finished the work on it] edit the whole thing... add something cut something well I think you know how it works... so yeah as I've been working active on it for couple of mouths most of the time I am at home [not school] this paper has taken my time...
I've been watching quite a lot of Lost too.... nice show ^^
why am I even writing this?
oh right right.. as always... I should go to bed but I want to listen to some more music so I find something I could do to keep my hands busy
and by the way the theme of my work is "The influence other music ganders have made on evolution of heavy metal" or something like that....
yes I am just blabering not I know I know....

why are so greedy these days? and not only for money or things but mostly for fame "I want to be the best I want to stand out I want others to look at me from below as I bask in my glory above them"..... oh so silly I can never understand what gives?

why am I even writing this? oh right right... to spend the time.... have to get up after 4 hours... aynt that bad...... silly people..... look at me I am so great!....... look at me I am such nothing more likely....... shallow inteligence.... haha.... only show the intelect of the one who has said that.....


yes I am better than you and no I am nothing compared to you

with dim greetings, Shadow mistress

having Black Autumn album "Ecstasy, Nightmare, Doom" on the background