first rays of light over a frozen ground

if only she could see herself trough my eyes. I wish I could show her the way I see her. then she would have to admit that she's beautiful.. and it hurts so bad each time she doubts that.. if only I would know what to do.. how to show her how beautiful she is.. I say it. she calls me a liar.. she doesn't believe.. she thinks I'm imagining things.. she says I am blind and only dreaming but for the first time in my life I feel like I am out of the dream.. and I see her and she is so beautiful and it hurts so bad each time she doubts it.. if only she would know exactly how bad it hurts.. maybe then she would understand... she says she doesn't believe and leaves.. my hand reaches for the.. but it's no longer there.. right.. I took it away.. thought I won't want it... she is so beautiful.. and it hurts so bad.. if only I could show her