Exit Wounds

- so what do we learned today?
- that I have lost my empathy
- wasn't that clear for a long time already?
- yeah but.. that was this days conclusion
- ohh.. I see. anything else? you look kinda down
- it's nothing really.. I am just having hopes again
- and losing them
- yeah...
- it's quite painful
- you're telling me -giggle-
- -giggle-
- I just finally see how it is... finally see myself for who I really am and why I am still like this
- and that would be..
- I am bleeding
- can you make it stop?
- I tried but I ended up as an empty shell
- that's no good
- yeah.. tell me... why does nothing helps? why does no one helps?
- oh you know how it is with them.. they just don't know how to help and even if they do... they will just stop and stare while thinking "someone should help her" maybe someone will say "oh you poor thing" someone maybe will try to figure out why are you bleeding
- I am still here on the floor.. still bleeding
- they have their own problems you know it and you can't blame them
- oh I know I know.. and I am not going to blame them.. I wouldn't be better myself I can bet
- they just don't know what to do
- so they choose to do nothing...
- you know you could tell them.. scream for help
- my mouth is dry I try to talk but the words.. they never get over my lips
- you have to try harder
- but I am tired and I have lost too much blood
- you look very pale
- will you help me?
- you know I am only in your head
- it's all right.. I'll just weep on your shoulder and cover up my wounds when I go out
- you think you'll be able to do that.. pretend again
- I'll have to try that's my only chance -sigh-


oh and by the way.. about the don't cha thing.. I lied.. I don't need her to be darker or anything.. I just need her to be that's all