To Rid The Disease

I feel so weak... why do I take everything so deep too seriously?
I feel so fragile....
for a time I thought I've become stronger.. but no that was just another illusion... I suppose that's just the way I am..... unstable... I wonder how long will this last till it's finally done.. till my life is finally done.. -giggle- with nerves like mines it's miracle I am still here not in the white house.. I am a good actress what can I say? -giggle- I feel so weak.... like the lightest blow could be make come crashing down... will I ever become stronger?........ maybe.. for a second but it won't last no.... I feel so fragile... like the softest touch could make me split into tiny peaces.. never to be put together again.. I can only sit and look with my thoughts dizling around... around the objects in the room.. around you.... I can not move my arms are tide.. I can not talk my words are stones... I am back here again just where I started -giggle- ready for another round? -sigh-
"and I would freeze if you ever asked me.. that was my way"
"how I am losing this all it's just the way I live"