You there Bringer of my despair

- why are you sad?
you asked
- I am not sad
- then why are you crying?
- it's the rain falling
- I can give you an umbrella
- they make me sick
then a pause interrupted our conversation.. I looked above.. thousands of daggers were striking upon me and I felt liquor dropping down my face... I unclosed my eyes and I saw you.. I saw you drown... down the water I saw you drown... your moon white arm stretching upwards.. catching the daggers.. fingers spread so wide... I saw you drown.. down the water I saw you drown...... life is full of darkness and murderers come my way.. some day you will join them and I will let you in