are you dead yet?

couldn't sleep this night... again.. damn... god damn insomnia... that shit is killing me -sigh- it's keeping me up and what is the worst it stucks a load of shit in my head so I am laying there trying to fall asleep but in my head these ever so overreacted thoughs keep spinning around.... again and again and all I can do is cry myself to sleep... night after night.... maybe I should seek profesional help.. there's something terribly wrong with me... I hate how I keep over reacting... feeling like I am the only one who suffers.... hate myself for that ever so much... but this voice in my head it keeps whispering over and over again and I just can't seem to be able to get rid of it... not alone at least -sigh- I am ever so weak and I hate it till the core I just wish.... I need to get some sleeping pills maybe they will help....

somehow this seems to ease the agony of falling asleep

I am starting fall for that little girl ^^ and I have no fing idea why only now