Blackwater Park (by Opeth)

she says she can't write? how is that possible.. I've seen her doing that.. she says she can not write... has she tried? of curse she has and more than once but there isn't any use.. has she really tried? yes?... then that's why she says she can't write.. if she has really tried it is for no use.. someone made her do that.. who? they? others? herself? why the fuck is she trying if she don't want to? if you don't want to write then don't I would say.. if you don't feel like you must then don't.. seriously don't.. if she feels like she can't.. then don't.. there are plenty of other.. better things to do... why am I writing? because I feel like I must get things out of my mind.. cause if I put them down they won't spin in my head in circles making me feel all dizzy inside... write only if you feel like you must... writing is good for my health.. to keep everything inside... thous thoughts start to rot infecting the good ones as well... I am a mess my head is a mess.. a pile of everything and nothing.. I have no box system.. I think I had one once.. a long time ago... now it's only a pile so now and then I must take something out before it starts to rot... she says she can't write... sounds like she doesn't have to.. then why bother yourself and try? I suppose she can store the things in her head without the need to take something out... I envy her then... truly I do... but if she still would like to try.. maybe just for the sake of "and what if I manage to?" all I can say... start by little.. like.. "Dear diary.. today I had backed potatoes for lunch.. I like baked potatoes.. they make up the main part of my diet" cause you know.. when you have a chance to look back to the things you've had in your mind in past... it's truly interesting and helps on self exploring a lot.... as for myself.. besides all that including the self exploring part.. I really love to over read some stuffs I have put down.. to read and thing "you know what? this really is something good.. and I don't really care if anyone else think it's crap"