morning of the remembrance

I just want
someone to understand
someone to hold my hand



last night
and I think they are back
last night
and it feels like I'm going back

but maybe
I never really moved
but maybe
it never really stopped

constant confusion
can you imagine what it's like?
utter confusion
try to imagine what it's like

and when the state aynt so
it's one of two
cold and empty [nothings never]
agonizing pain [please just let me die]

I am not just saying this
please try to understand
I am not just saying this
that's where I've really been



I just want
someone to understand
someone to hold me hand

and I fall again