Forever Failure (by Paradise Lost)

why am I here?.. ohh it's just... wait what?
inconvenient tolerance
I am doomed to be stoned in the sludge swamp.. but I am completely fine whit that.. at least for now.. isn't this weird.. I feel like I am lying to myself no matter what I say/think... no matter what opinion I overtake.. just be yourself they say... you want me to be myself? help a little out and tell.. who the fuck am I.. cause I have no idea... no matter what I say.. it all feels like a lie..... lost.. somewhere.. nowhere... each thing I do it all seems fake.. each word I say... I'll better stay silent... in eyes they say.. in eyes you can see if it's true or false.. but even eyes lie.. to me... to you.. to you... they have always lied... the truth's been lost.. oh where are you when I need you the most.. will I ever find you again? did I even ever possessed you? "I don't really know what sorry means. I've been sorry all my life" I don't really know what truth is. I've been lying all my life... oh and here it comes.. the fall... I can feel the wind striking my face... the ground when it comes.. will I break again? well will it come? I am sorry.. I'm so sorry I lied.. but I don't know what the truth is anymore... I should just go.. there is no use.. I messed it up.. the game has been lost... nothing but misunderstanding... it's always just misunderstanding... I am sorry...



how comes that the right song always comes at the right time unexpected?