Sledge-Hammered Heart (by Totalselfhatred)

I want to be down.. as down as I possible can... cause she gets sorry for me then and leaves me alone...
I want to cry.. get in the corner and cry.. cry till I pass out.. maybe when I wake up you will be here... then you will kiss me and say that I belong... that I finally belong
I went wrong... somewhere in my path I went so very wrong... now I am utterly lost
I am so very sorry.. to all thous lives I've interrupted with my actions.. with my presence... I wish I could go back.. before it all started.. to never make that wrong turn.. maybe then it all would have been fine and I would have done such horrible things...
when ever I get too close to someone I tend to fuck it all up in one way or another
I have such clumsy clumsy hands...
will I ever get out of this lacuna coil?